Saturday, May 17

Dark Thoughts and being Pregnant

I am seven weeks pregnant now. I do not have any doubts. I want this baby very much. The thing is the negative thoughts are dancing in my brain. Long forgotten quarrels and arguments from family, friends. Past events, I thought I had forgotten but no. Every detail is in my mind.

I can not sleep well. I am worrying about things all the time. I dont know will it ever go away. Books say it will after the 10th week.

I am glad I am married. When it is right, you know it is right. When it is not right, you do not want to think about it. If you had doubts and you went to search for them and decided this is the guy. Most probably he is. If you had doubts but you pretended to be worried and decided to settle down no matter what. I don't know.

Faith is important.

I am so emotional I do not know what I am talking about. My hormons make me a different person. I am a new woman now but I am not sure I like her better. She is too emotional, too sensitive, too touchy and edgy all the time. Waiting for the time to get mad.

I hope this passes easily....

Cheers youall there!