Dark Thoughts and being Pregnant

I am seven weeks pregnant now. I do not have any doubts. I want this baby very much. The thing is the negative thoughts are dancing in my brain. Long forgotten quarrels and arguments from family, friends. Past events, I thought I had forgotten but no. Every detail is in my mind.

I can not sleep well. I am worrying about things all the time. I dont know will it ever go away. Books say it will after the 10th week.

I am glad I am married. When it is right, you know it is right. When it is not right, you do not want to think about it. If you had doubts and you went to search for them and decided this is the guy. Most probably he is. If you had doubts but you pretended to be worried and decided to settle down no matter what. I don't know.

Faith is important.

I am so emotional I do not know what I am talking about. My hormons make me a different person. I am a new woman now but I am not sure I like her better. She is too emotional, too sensitive, too touchy and edgy all the time. Waiting for the time to get mad.

I hope this passes easily....

Cheers youall there!

Catching Up...

My Dear Readers,

I was away for a while. I got married and I just wanted to feel the intense happiness of the first months of my marriage. It has been a carnival. It has been great.

I am married for four months now and I think I am pregnant. Thanks to God!.. I am so excited and happy at the same time. My first impression was being blessed. Then fear came. I am a PCOS patient. I have been on Metformin for some time. I lost some weight to my wedding but I gained them afterwards. I have been on Metformin which did not help me lose weight. But... I think I am pregnant (I made like ten different tests for the last ten days) which is a blessing and a miracle. All the women there suffering from PCOS: Good news here. Never give up hope. It will happen.

But... The fear part. I have read that for most of PCOSerrs out there miscarriage rates are very high. I try not to think about it. I will try to feed myself with healty foods. Eat lots of vegetables and fruits... I will be careful.

I hope I will have a healthful baby. I am sooo excited.